So I can’t fall asleep tonight. I’m too full! And no, I don’t mean in the stomach sense; more north: the heart. I don’t understand how that is keeping me from sleep at the moment, but I can’t explain it any other way! I am full and it makes me smile! For one, my son is going to be the smartest kid in his kindergarten class! All the things they are working on for the year, almost, he already knows! He’s just going to be getting better at it. Some might ask, why not try to skip a grade? Well, he’s already young for his grade, and I don’t want to inhibit is chances in physical things when the time comes. He’ll get challenged enough, and it will give him better grades for college, right? HA! Seriously though, my kid is smart.
Another thing that makes me so happy right now is my husband’s joy in his job. The last 2 years he has been teaching I have seen the apathy and discontent etched in his face every day and it broke my heart. I want more than anything for him to feel useful and satisfied, and so far this year that is what I am seeing! He has switched to teaching 10th grade Geometry which makes most people cringe. Trevor, however, seems to be flourishing as a teacher with this new subject.
Another thing that is making me smile tonight is my own satisfaction at my job. You wouldn’t think a part time gig at the ymca would feel fulfulling, but it does. There are definitely seasons of frustration, but the seasons of love outweigh them. My superiors are my favorite people right now. I love them and I treasure their respect. It’s sounds super dorky, but I am stuck on creating a Top 10 memories list and framing it for them! What a nerd!
So, these are some of the things that have filled my heart, and I think the #1 thing that is keeping me awake is my much improved intimacy with my precious LORD. It has been much neglected as of late, but in the past 8 days or so I have rekindled a burning desire to know Him more and entirely. I hope to inspire with my smile these days. I saw a member of the y the other day when I was working out, and she laughed at me, and I said, didn’t recognize me without the uniform did you? She proceeded to say, oh no, I always know you by your smile. You have a great smile. What a compliment? I can really get caught up in the frustrations of life, but tonight is not one of those nights. Tonight I am smiling…soon I will hopefully be sleeping!
